Hi
What’s up dr.”
I checked my whatsapp. It was unknown number. So I replied
“I am fine
Who is this”
“ I am Rini. I came to you for hair problem”
“ ok Tell how can I help you” I was bit surprised. Nobody ever whatsapp me till now.
“ Dr. problem still there . so much hair fall every day” she also added few worried emoji.
“hmmmm” it was my favourite trick to show that I am not much interested in chatting.
“ what hmmmm. I am worried sir”
“did I prescribed some test ?” I knew she won’t let me ignore her.
“ Ya . blood test. Haemoglobin . It is 4.8 mg/dl”
“ What? Only 4.8. do you what is normal range?” I suddenly bit shocked and typed the text. I thought she is taking this report carelessly.
“ ya I know above 11 is normal?”
“ then how could you have such a low haemoglobin” although I was not interested but now it was necessary to tell her that she has to go another specialist for such a low haemoglobin.
“ You just don’t sit an ignore this report go to doctor” I texted again.
“ Ya Ya I know I already met. I have blood cancerJ” she put smiling emoji with that.
“ what which one??” of course not all blood cancer are lethal. I just wanted to know which cancer she has.
“ Dr. says I have aplastic anaemic named condition. Which is in grade 4 now”
I hardly remembered her face. Was she beautiful or not?? Was she very talkative? I was chatting a unknown lady who was dying. I didn’t know what should I send in reply. Chatting doesn’t show pain. Her emoji are fake. She must be crying in bone pain while chatting with me.
“ what else dr. said?”I knew dr must have given some dead line.
“ I have less than 1 month . I don’t wanna die bald. Hehehe;) ;)”
Some times chatting says what figure says not your heart. I really doubt that she really laughed while texting “”hehehe””
“ you won’t be. I guarantee you J”
“ so I am dying” she texted it so casually that it triggered some cold wave in me. I just closed the watsapp and started remembering her face. This was a strange day for me. an unknown lady dying. I just had chat with her. I mean I was not chatting with robot. She was human. She has emotions.
Next morning I replied her.
“ don’t think about it. Enjoy whatever you got ..and you have.” Actually I wanted to see her photo. I wanted to ask for her photo. But I was afraid. I don’t want to see anybody in my life who is gonna die in next few days.
“ thanks. What’s up” with this she sent 2-3 jokes too.
I don’t know what should I say. What should I chat. Should I ask about her boy friend? or about her family? Or about her job . but these all questions seem irrelevant and useless.
“ what are you doing?” I just texted.
“ nothing” small reply came.
I saw her status. “ in hospital.. life is beautiful”
I have seen many people they keep some complicated, highly intellectual kind of status. But life becomes just simple.. beautiful .. for a dying person. No word other than this can describe the life. Indeed life is beautiful. Just a one line introduction is enough.
“ Are you in hospital?”
“ yes! Had bleeding from nose. Now stopped”
Social networking, chatting is fake. It spreads fake emotions. No dying lady can smile or joke. But for a moment I felt I am chatting with the truest heart exist on earth. And chatting was exploring her true inner emotion which she can’t express in real word.
“ what’s your age?” I was still struggling to remember her face. I completely forgot when she came to my clinic.
“ 18”
“ how you feeling now?”
“ its bit pain full now.my every part of every bone paining”
“I understand” I knew she would be in pain since the very 1st day of chat.
“ but it’s not as painful as dying like this.” She was typing …..typing ….typing…
“ I feel very empty. I wanted to study lot. I wanted to have boy friend. I wanted to enjoy all thing whatever teenage girl does.” She kept on typing..without waiting my reply. It was like somebody shouting after many-many years.
“ Hmmmm” I just could type this only.
“ but I am dying on half way.”
Somebody was about to finish her life journey in middle. Dreams about to shatter. Somebody was really dying. And I was just “ hmmm”. Was it insensitive and apathetic or I just lost my sense of chat. I couldn’t sleep that night. I read many times whatever small 2 days chatting we did. I was preparing myself. Preparing to say few good, motivating, inspiring words as I became almost text less in previous conversation.
“ hello good morning” although she was not online. But I was keen to chat.
“ hello” I texted again and waited few minutes.
“ hello you there?” I didn’t get any reply even after few hours.
“ hello??” I typed again.
I never saw her online since last conversation. Her last seen was really a last seen and my hello is still waiting for her in chat box.
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